People say they can tell...

I can't. I keep looking in the mirror for some defining change in my body but it hasn't happened yet. I know the scales aren't wrong...I'm down 29 lbs. so far. I am able to get into pants that were given to me for the transition of all of the clothes sizes that I will be going through...and they were 2 sizes smaller than my own pants. All of my blouses (like this one here) are too big on me. I haven't been able to wear this blouse in over a year. Yeah me.

Today I had my first and only (I hope) dumping syndrome. No, it wasn't birthday cake that did it even though I would have preferred it to be something like that rather than what it was!! I have been drinking Glucerna shakes for breakfast but I can only have half of one because of the sugar content. I am only allowed 4 grams of sugar per meal. Well, I thought I would be smart this morning and try to drink about 3/4 of it so that I could get more protein. Boy, was that a dumb move. Not long after I began drinking it I started to feel sick to my stomach...then it was off to the bathroom...there I was, sitting on the potty holding a trash can up to my face...my heart was beating out of my chest, I had cold sweats and an unbelievable pain in my stomach. It finally happened...no, I didn't "get rid of it"...I just had the dry heaves...then I had to sleep it off for about 2 hours...Let me tell you this, I will NEVER do that to myself again!!

I'm getting ready to go back to work tomorrow and I must say that I am a little excited...and a little nervous. I know that a full day of work is going to kick me in the teeth but I am going to try it and see how it goes. I'm ready mentally and emotionally but I don't know about physical...so I will be a test. Thank goodness I have a great boss who understands. I know if I start feeling bad I can go to her and she will let me leave a little early.

I'm going to read Hannah a few books before bedtime...I better cherish this one last evening with her where I'm not wiped out for a while...

Until then...